Oughtn't we to be prepared for the best, too? It's just as likely to happen as the worst.
~ LM Montgomery
The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly.
~ Buddha
so so true
But the days pass in their swirl and whirl and swing and song, and every day he doesn't die again, and that knocks me out.
~ Brian Doyle, in The Wet Engine
Hope is putting faith to work when doubting would be easier.
~Author Unknown
When we stop opposing reality, action becomes simple, fluid, kind and fearless.
~ Byron Katie
Every creature on earth has approximately two billion heartbeats to spend in a lifetime. You can spend them slowly, like a tortoise, and live to be two hundred years old, or you can spend them fast, like a hummingbird, and live to be two years old.
~ Brian Doyle, in The Wet Engine
Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.
~ Christopher Robin, to Pooh
Be patient and tough; some day this pain will be useful to you.
~ Ovid
In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.
i'm a (mostly) SAHM in small-town Ontario with 3 amazing children. i really am blessed to have all of them in my life. they challenge, change and delight me every day. in my "spare" time i enjoy all kinds of paper crafting, writing, journaling, reading, spending time with friends, and trying new things.
please pray today for yale. he's another HLHS babe, he had the hybrid and ASD stent. in the wee hours this morning he was airlifted to SickKids. his heart is failing, and they'll be doing emergency surgery very soon.
Little Asher was born December 2, 2006 with a rare and severe congenital heart defect known as Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome, or HLHS. (In the simplest terms, this means that he is missing the parts of the heart that pump and carry blood out to the body.) He also has epilepsy, problems with his kidneys, and a weak immune system. He has survived feeding and GI issues (and has now been tube-free since January, 2010), sepsis, several staph infections, and heart failure many times over.
In his short little life, he has already made it through 28 hospital admissions and 13 surgical procedures (ten cardiac, three of which were open heart). He has good days and bad days, but still he perseveres. He really is the bravest, strongest, toughest person I know. He's such a trooper - the stuff he puts up with on a day-to-day basis would astound you!
We are all really blessed to have him in our lives. He lights up every room he enters, and you really can't help but fall in love with him the minute you meet him.
"May Asher be blessed above other sons, and may your strength match your days."
Deuteronomy 33: 24-25
I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Your works are wonderful,I know that full well.
tortilla chips and spicy salsa (yes, yes, salt CHF GERD blah blah blah) LOL
Hungry Hungry Hippos
Percy (from Thomas & friends)
tickling, and being tickled
Lightning McQueen, Buzz Lightyear, and R2D2
Farkie Malarkie, his orange ant stuffie
In the Nightgarden, especially Iggle Piggle
Asher's conditions (i can translate and explain, upon request)
severe HLHS (severely hypoplastic left ventricle, mitral atresia, aortic atresia, severe arterial stenosis, severe COA, restrictive ASD, right ventricular hypertrophy, PA hypoplasia, RPV hypoplasia)
congestive heart failure
hypertension
Sick Sinus Syndrome, intermittent AV block
symptomatic bradycardia, junctional escape rhythm
pacemaker
tachycardia (due to CHF and stent material in AV node)
post-hybrid, post-ASD stent
post-Norwood/Glenn shunt
post-hemi Coles procedure, with PA plastes and atrial stent removal
enteral feed dependency (NG-tube, then GJ-tube, then G-tube) (resolved)
A Lexicon of Asher. words/phrases from life with Asher.
The distal anastomosis is then constructed to the proximal innominate artery using standard anastomotic technique. can you believe, i actually understand this sentence. i don't know the exact ins and outs of "standard anastomotic technique," but basically, as long as you know how to attach a shunt, that's what you do at the far end. that's what all that means.
less than optimal communication. probably one of the most brilliantly diplomatic phrases i have ever heard, thank-you very much, dr atkison. in fact, when he first said it, my jaw hit the floor. you know how much i love language, and this has to be among the best.
freaxious. that horrible combination of emotions, which i suspect may be specific to SN/heart parenting: fearful, dreadful, anxious, nauseous.
it's just a drive in cincinatti. dr caldarone had never dug a stent out of an atrial wall before. i said, "oh, that's not what a mom wants to hear the day before surgery!" he looked at me, smiled, and asked, "ever been to cincinatti?" i said, "um, no..." "but you drive a car, right?" "um, yes..." (totally not seeing where this is going.) he asked, "so would you feel comfortable driving in cincinatti?" "um, i guess so..." (totally confused by now). he responded, "well, this is just a drive in cincinatti." nauseating and funny, all at the same time! LOL
dunno. docs say this a lot when discussing asher.
hopefully, this will be the last surgery he ever needs. these words were uttered by our (usually) delightful and genius surgeon, dr caldarone, after the Fontan. when i bumped into him by starbucks in april, i said to him, "you totally jinxed it!!!" {shakes fist at dr caldarone} then he said these exact words again after the pacemaker insertion. because, you know, when it comes to asher, why wouldn't you tempt fate a second time? {wishes that readers can hear laughter and sarcasm on a blog}
no, no, there's always a reason. we may not be able to figure out what it is, but there's always a reason. once again, dr caldarone, defending himself (or trying to) when i accused him of jinxing asher.
i'm frightened, actually. that was a doc. a smart doc. he has learned a valuable lesson. it makes for easier trips to cardio when the doc knows what asher is capable of... and prone to.
asher. also, asher-ish. adj., as in "asher pink" (pale with faint blue undertones) or "asher healthy" (no trips to emerg in the past two weeks) or "asher-ish complications." he's his own adjective. nuff said.
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