Asher requested this specifically

yesterday, out of the blue, i started to sing this song to the kidley-winks. oh, wait! i think blithe was working on math homework. that's probably it. anyway... i started singing this, and the kidley-winks absolutely loved it! so now, asher has asked that i put it on his blog, so that you can enjoy it, too.

and, of course, once i found a clip of the song performed on The Muppet Show, i had to post that one. ;)

enjoy!

after reading a particularly hilarious post on cake wrecks, asher has decided that he wants this song on his blog. enjoy!!



and seriously, go check out the cake wrecks post. after reading the first paragraph, before i'd even looked at a picture, i was laughing so hard my sides hurt and asher thought i was crying. it's just epic!!!!

my bad :S

i realized at church today that i had forgotten to update the blog here with some more recent developments. my bad. so here we go...

the other night - thursday, i believe - i was chatting with our amazing paeds dr b. she informed me that she was not overly convinced by london's take on things, and so she called toronto cardio to talk it over with them.

and, it would seem, toronto was very concerned by what they heard.

and, it would seem, toronto wants asher to come to pacemaker clinic in toronto.

because, it would seem, they think there is, in fact, something wrong with asher's pacemaker.

and, it would seem, they are not overly impressed with her idea to lower his pacer setting when he's stable enough. (which, frankly, is fine by me, since she wants to lower it to 75, and asher was having chest pain right around that point, so 80 is quite alright in my books.)

now, i didn't get a chance to call SickKids on friday, so i'll be calling tomorrow, talking it over with them a little further, and setting an appointment date for their pacemaker clinic.

and then i'm going to vomit.

i'm going to be honest here: i want to go with dr w's ideas here. i like the idea of growing pains and more data and asher being worried or stressed somehow when his pulse is checked in clinic.

but... and again, i'm being honest... i'm not entirely convinced. part of me still... doubts, i guess. it's not that i don't trust dr w, because i do. i think she's a great doctor. she cares, she understands that i'm a mom and i'm concerned about my boy. she knows what it's like to be in position. she identifies, understands, cares, listens, explains... everything you could ever want in a cardiologist. except...

ok, i'm going to tell you a little story:

over the last couple weeks, i've been asking asher off and on (mostly when he's becoming flushed and/or grey) how he's feeling. but, in an effort to keep him honest, i'll ask him how he's doing when he looks fine. and once in a while, mostly on a whim (read: when i think of it), i check his pulse.

i did that yesterday, in fact. for no real reason, i sat him on my lap, found his pulse, and counted for a full minute. he was relaxed and calm and happy. no worries. just snuggling quietly with mommy. and his pulse was...

wait for it...

100.

dead on, 100. not 99, not 101. one. hun. dred.

which is, you'll note, exactly his heart rate every time it's checked anymore. every. single. time.

100 bpm.

now, i have some thoughts about this (surprised? haha)... it's really kind of a hunch... but it does involve the pacemaker not working properly. i'm hoping i'm wrong. i really hope i'm wrong.

but the freaxious feeling in the pit of my stomach just won't go away...

i'll keep you posted. and i promise i'll do a better job over the coming days.

meanwhile, please pray for us. please pray for asher, that he will be ok. he's still having chest pain every day. his energy is still up, but the pains come on every time he's active. so please pray for him. also, please pray for me. like i said, i have this knot of freaxia in my gut that just won't go away. pleasse pray for peace for me, that i'll continue to trust God, trust the docs, trust asher... that i'll do the right thing, speak the right words, ask the right questions, that sort of thing. please pray for me. i also haven't been sleeping very well lately, and if we have to drive to toronto, i need to be alert enough to get us there and back safely. (haha) trust me, i'm not a danger behind the wheel, and i actually have enough energy during the day. it's just that i'm not sleeping at night, so please pray that i can get some rest.

now, for something a little lighter...

asher and i went out last night, just the two of us. a little date, if you will. we went to see Gnomeo & Juliet, and he loved it. ok, so did i. i saw it the other week with bram, and i've loved it both times. it just doesn't get old. it's such a cute movie. and this coming from a Shakespeare purist here, but this movie is sooooo cute, it's great! love it!!! seriously, go see. both my boys had a great time. we all highly recommend it. :) in fact, it's asher's "best" movie right now. awesome! :)

asher's new "best" song

dude, you are such a dude!!!

so, this morning, i picked up asher from his sunday school class, and he and i meandered down the hall to get blithe and bram from their class. as we're walking, he saw an older kid he knows. (rowan is 13 and helps out in asher's class sometimes. asher loves him. so cute!) anyway...

rowan is walking down the hall with a bunch of his friends. asher sees him, does the little nod-thing, and says, "hey rowan." rowan looks over, does the nod-thing, and says, "hey asher."

and they both just kept walking.

because they're just. that. cool.

it's asher's first FULL day of school today...

so, of course, i'm blogging about it. (did you expect me to not post here about this?)

asher has been doing very well in school. he is loving every minute of it... or... um... almost every minute of it.

on his second day, he was sad and crying in the morning, so his EA took him over to see bram, who gave him a big hug and made asher happy. i loved to hear about how supportive my older kidley-winks are with their little brother. it makes my heart go up, it really does.

so this morning, i was getting the kids' lunches ready, and asher came into the kitchen. "what are you doing, mommy?" "i'm making your lunches for school today, sweetie." to which he replied, and i quote,

"I NOT WANT GO TO SCHOOL, MOMMY!!!!!"

"what? what's wrong? don't you like school, hun?"

"no. i not like school anymore."

"how come?

"because day get mad at me."

"you mean when you wanted to play on the computer and they said 'no'?"

"yes. day get mad at me."

now, let me explain this. on friday morning last week, mrs b introduced the new centres that hadn't been opened yet. one of those centres was the computer. asher, it would seem, wanted to play on the computer right away. they told him that he would have to wait for his turn. anyway, this was not what asher wanted to hear, and well, in true asher-doesn't-know-crying-is-bad-for-him form, he got upset. and so, today, he not want go to school because day get mad at him. {rolls eyes} i tried to tell him that he will get a turn, and he'll be spending a lot of time on the computer, probably starting this week, but nope. he not like school anymore.

now, all that being said, i got him dressed without incident this morning, and we piled into the truck and when i dropped the kids off at school, he grabbed his backpack and ran after blithe and bram, who were taking him to the kindergarten doors. no complaints, no "i not want go to school," nothing. just smiles and running off to his class.

now, you may notice in that last paragraph that i drove the kids to school. "but, heather," i hear you asking, "why isn't asher going on the bus? were you running late this morning?" haha you'd think so, but no. i got up after only 4 hits on the snooze button (roughly 7:40), and everything was running smoothly and on time. so that was not the issue... today. (why, no, i love mornings. why do you ask?)

asher had been taking the bus to school. and then the school called one afternoon last week, and he will need to be on a special bus. he will have a car seat and get picked up and dropped off right at home, and there will be someone on the bus who can watch for asher's, well, asher-ness. it's just that the regular school bus isn't a safe place for him. and frankly, that's fine with asher. because he "not like da bus. it scary. dare too many people dare." so i'm hopeful that the change to a different busing situation will be smooth and asher will adjust well.

now, on a different note, asher decided on friday that he wanted to play on the computer. i set him up with his favourite site, and he said, "mommy, i not need help." and you know what? he didn't!!! he just played away on the laptop for almost an hour, perfectly content, clicking away all on his own. he did amazingly well. as he sat on my lap, i watched in amazement as he handled the somewhat-tricky finger-pad-thingy and clicking the button there, making pictures, playing songs, putting animals in the appropriate habitats... it was truly incredible. i was so impressed and proud.

maybe it's not such an impossible dream that he'll be the next bill gates or steve jobs... and i'll now add to that dream that asher will keep me in the lifestyle to which i would like to become accustomed. ;)

asher's new fave song :)

he's actually a little obsessed with this now. the boys are big fans of Kraftwerk now (which makes me very, very happy and very, very proud), and this is one of Asher's favourite songs. :)

although now he's got the idea that he wants to be in the Tour de France. please, someone, change his mind. my heart just can't handle that!!

asher's new favourite song. enjoy!